Process

I share with you the process of my work which is the process of life. The feeling, sensing, seeing and the surprise that exists in being aware of the moment and of change.

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05/07/2021
A couple of days ago I received an envelope full of old letters from my parent’s house that was emptied. These were my letters, written 30 years ago to my family. From the time I lived in Auroville, in the south of India.
Reading the letters opened for me the experience of the moment, the moment when I wrote the words as a young woman, filled with curiosity and the joy of life.
I was wrapped with the scent of what I loved so deeply in that other life. Wrapped in the experience of mystery, magic, falling in love with what life is, and the sense of deep inner development and an abundance of beauty. Not all of it was easy, but the letters brought back a great love for life. they expressed the experience of the moment with such vividness. They expressed the magic in life.
This is one of the paintings that came out of this.
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Floor work…

31/12/2020

I paint on the ground, I approach the painting from any direction that calls me. one painting leads to another and yet another, till the wave of energy is over, all is expressed.

Today after I painted on paper I felt the need to start a new canvas, and finally after long months of paper paintings only I had a new canvas to paint on (Corona times left me with no new canvases in the studio).

 

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Paintings before a new shut- down

27/12/2020

The paintings from this morning have a clear sense of restriction and freedom. here is a detail from one of them.

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Days with complexity

23/12/2020

There are different movements within, but the presence of light is there.

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15/12/2020

There’s a distracted mood this morning, I decided to paint from this energy that is still not clear to me. I felt the need to use my big round paintbrush, to sense the hard bristles, feel the definite strength, unrefined. I love it, it brings the sensation of smearing the paint in a circular way, I feel the resistance and then from the murky paint blotches there is movement…

I am aware of the echoing of the movement of the brush within, more than I understand what it all means.

 

 

 

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Breathing in the beauty

23/11/2020

breathing in the beauty between lock-downs.

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Light flickering

16/09/2020

There is a feeling of life pulsing in this painting as the morning light falls upon it, as it changes every minute…

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Corona days

21/04/2020

Complex, heavy, intense, condensed energy

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The studio moved home – Corona Days

21/03/2020
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Ink on paper and the Sun

16/11/2019

Entering the studio with sunrise my eyes lay on the play of golden light on the ink brushstrokes on the large paper laying on the ground. Capturing the moment with the camera is the same for me as being one with the inner movement.

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Days of fire

13/11/2019

Days of fire.

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Days of fire, painting

13/11/2019

The flames in the outer reality meet the inner fire.

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Perfect imperfection

16/10/2019

Seeing such perfect imperfection in nature is so uplifting for me. A tree in a forest in Japan.

“Wabi-sabi (侘寂) is a world view centered on the acceptance of transience and imperfection. The aesthetic is sometimes described as one of beauty that is “imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete”.

The way I paint resonates this world view. The painting is never planned, The brush strokes and marks are what they are, they go through their own development on the canvas or paper, the colors might mix or bleed into each other, the layers are opaque or transparent, life develops on the canvas through the movement that exists in me at the present moment. revealing itself …

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Kyoto Municipal Museum of Art Annex

09/10/2019

The beautiful old building is where my paintings were exhibited.

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Paintings of mine in the Kyoto Museum of Art Annex

09/10/2019

Paintings of mine exhibited in Kyoto Municipal Museum of Art Annex, Japan. At an International Exhibit of Art.

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What will come next?

18/08/2019

What will come next?
this is a second Unfolding large canvas,
Pretty much as long as my studio.
I feel the subtle excitement within,
it will find it’s way through me by color and movement directly on to the canvas …
as in life my painting reveals itself with time
it is the sensation of the moment that unfolds it.

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Detail from ‘Unfolding’

03/07/2019

Detail from ‘Unfolding’.

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Unfolding, ‘Art Space’ Gallery, Tel Aviv

03/07/2019

‘Unfolding’ on the walls of ‘Art Space’ Gallery in Tel Aviv.

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Ongoing painting

30/03/2019

The canvas roll spreads on the ground
colors are mixed
diluted yet potent
brushes chosen
music is there in my head now filling the studio,
the movement within the body sweeping into dance upon the white canvas.
unfolding.

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Silence

25/11/2018

And sometimes I need silence, vast, a sense of Genesis.

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Seeing beauty

25/08/2018

Moving my gaze, being open, seeing beauty.

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Also complete

20/08/2018

Entering the studio this morning I saw both paintings I worked on parallelly were complete.

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Complete

20/08/2018

The newest painting. I worked on it yesterday and left when it was wet and on the floor, This morning I saw it. it was complete.

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11/06/2018

This is a canvas with a long history. It had gone through many “life times”, many stages. I needed courage to re-enter it each time. Each time not knowing how the painting will develop, where it will take me. It has changed over and over again, leaving scarce traces of the previous stage. Finally the process revealed the outburst of strong energy that knows.

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Moves swiftly

24/01/2018

Moves swiftly within me

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Sunrise passing through me

10/01/2018

I could’nt take a picture of the incredible sunrise I saw on my way, but it flew into the painting I am working on. The magical light went through me.

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Expanding

16/12/2017

something new, awakening, filling me, expanding.

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14/08/2017

Beauty existing just in front of me moves me to a different realm, I sense the mystery, something in me is changed.

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Feeling homeostassis when the painting is finished

03/12/2015

I know when a painting is finished when I sense homeostasis within. There is no longer a need or an urge to touch it, to enter it.
I am with it as an observer. It feels whole.

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Seeing both – what is above the surface and what is below

25/10/2015

Seeing both- what is above the surface and what is below.

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A thin layer of transparency

25/05/2014

The word transparency came to my mind as I sat with the first coffee of the day. Why did it come? Is it because of the night’s dreams that evaporated leaving a thin transparent layer almost undetected on my consciousness? a sensation of knowing – not knowing that feels strange. Things are happening within me and I cannot recall or know all of them…a thin layer of transparency …

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26/11/2013

This small painting passed through so many fazes till it became what it should…

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Feeling change

07/10/2013
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Partial clarity

22/08/2013

Haze is the sensation I experience at present. Thinking of it I know it is true. Clarity is partial, revealing something and covering something, then revealing something else which turns into movement and evaporates…

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Rapid movement

27/01/2013

I saw in nature my inner movement,
I paint my inner movement and then find it in nature….

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The colour of the moment

20/12/2012

There is a specific color waiting. And once I have touched it (reached it), everything unfolds. Just like the right key to a locked case. And this color streams through me, and passes on from one canvas to another, from one painting to the next. Till it stops. The exact color of the soul at a certain time… Color and movement.

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Passing from one painting to the other

22/11/2012

There was suddenly so much energy going through me, passing from one painting to the other, allowing energy to flow…

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The beauty of everyday

04/11/2012
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Something passed through me

17/10/2012

Something passed through me, leaving a veil of knowing.
Vibrating without a reason, leaving transparent tracks then a residue of awareness,
Something settled in me,
Then evaporated.

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Surfing between territories

12/09/2012

I am in a space between worlds. Aware of the movement occurring within. Gliding, not in frenzy but with awareness. Surfing between inner territories and painting territories, is it all the same?

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Observing

05/07/2012

I took out one of the latest paintings and I’m sitting facing it. Absorbing each of its sides, standing up, turning it, allowing the painting to penetrate me. It no longer matters what I felt and experienced while painting it. It is an existing surface, a surface with trails of movement, paths of color.

When I took it out of the pile of canvases facing the wall I didn’t know if it was finished. It demanded observing. It demanded not knowing, just like a new person viewing a painting he has never seen, looking with openness, allowing what is happening on the canvas to touch me. Touch me anew each time I look at it…

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Out of the mist

27/06/2012

The solid image disappeared. There is a calling into a deeper unknown place. a place not yet understood. The wild, virgin place where underground currents are covered with mist then revealed…

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Breathing the sea at early morning

14/06/2012

It took me some time to realize that I don’t need to be in the studio and paint in order to do my art.
sometimes I need to step out… absorb, refill…

 

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A different sight

20/05/2012

Today I painted with eyes that don’t see. The blurriness in the eyesight gave freedom to the painting that has nothing to do with sight.